Boynomoder [she/her, pup/pup's]

but brown, blondes are overrated

I want this outfit, I want this hair.

I don’t want to play act at being a girl and that’s what it feels like I’d be doing if I tried to socially transition in the state I’m in.

I feel like this fear has paralyzed me for so long and I don’t know if anything will be good enough for my brain

Idk if I’d describe the feeling as “fireworks” tbh It’s just overwhelming and embarrassing

It’s weird that I am whole-ass married when kissing still flusters me

I’ve had multiple women flirt with me first (and express explicit interest in kissing/hooking up) and when I escalate to kiss them, they start giggling, pull back, and keep saying how nervous/shy they are.

This is me and I’m married

What?

I don’t

Weird how?

Should I actually look at myself in the mirror?

No, it means like “what’s up”…it’s like my catchphrase

What’s beeping

…why would it be a bit?

I’ve been married for a week; when do I start to hate my wife?

Tbh weight can fluctuate a fair amount just from water weight and undigested food and stuff, so it could just be that.

For me it’s more the act of purposefully going on the internet and making a post about it.

A guy dressing kind of fem or andro and getting mistaken for a girl or something isn’t necessarily gonna give me egg vibes, but if you go on the internet and make a post like “omg isn’t it soo weird how this happened.” I am

Not trying to be rude, but this is a pretty post to me.

Like subconsciously bragging about “passing” or “male-failing” almost.
Or the last line where it feels less like an assertive denial of being trans and more something you don’t think is in the cards for you.

I’m not trying to convince you, but I figured I’d comment since you made the post.