Thank you for your kind words. I just started a new antidepressants, so I’m hopeful it’ll help.

I focus less on getting motivation and more on structuring my life so that I can work with less. I’ve accepted that I am always going to feel low energy but it’s a lot easier to manage when everything is a habit on autopilot and my life is super organized. So the more I can autopilot things I need to do due to a very structured routine, the easier it is to cope with low energy because I am making fewer decisions.

I’ve been stuck in a depressive episode ever since the election kicked my mental health into decline again. I have been trying to dig myself out of it all week. Going to spend the weekend trying to clean up the depression mess from months of rotting in my house and then try to get on top of eating enough food again. I’m trying to accept my limitations even though I often feel bad about myself for being able to do less than other people do. I’m so jealous of people who can just exist without every tiny chore and responsibility being an enormous uphill struggle.

If Trump is fire, then oxygen is attention. We’re looking a reality TV star teamed up with all the big social media companies. They know how to play the crowd.

What I suspect is happening is he releases these series of ridiculous EOs while Elon illegally withholds payments and then he can twist the arm of any agency or politician who refuses to comply with his agenda. He’s doing this because he has such a limited margin in congress that he won’t be able to pass much. Then when he needs a fall guy for all these illegal actions, Elon and his big and loud mouth go to jail. Trump has now accumulated corrupt officials and proceeds to line the pockets of him and his oligarch friends.