The thing is… I kinda like using it? It just leaves me questioning and feeling weird. And there are so many women who top in a gay way. I just don’t know how to top in a gay way haha. The secondary Weird feelings are that I’m scared I’m falling back into a relationship with my ex. There are a few reasons why I really shouldn’t do that and the first being that I can’t be in a relationship rn at all. I need to be self focused. But the second is that I’m trying to figure out what I want in a relationship, and I kinda wanna try dating guys too because I’ve just never given that a shot. Idk I’m venting now 😅