• ouRKaoS
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    23 hours ago

    My knife collection began because I was suicidal.

    To keep myself around I got a bunch of knives so I wouldn’t pick a favorite and “dissapoint” the others.

    …I got better.

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      16 hours ago

      You know, that is one of the most creative safety solutions I have heard. Glad you came up with it (probably due to still wanting to fight). The fight never stops, hope you are still doing well.

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        15 hours ago

        I have my moments, just like everyone else, but I have more good ones than bad ones. I do have a genuine love for knives though now, and still don’t have a favorite.

        I keep seeing videos of a guy who buys TSA confiscated knives by weight & laughs at them for sucking, and I laugh harder because my angsty teenage self collected a lot of them back in the day.

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        13 hours ago

        Yep – It’s a gift & a curse.

        I find it super easy to put myself in other people’s shoes and see what they’re going through, but I have a hard time expressing my own feelings. It’s turned me into a bit of a loner, but I do have a small circle of people I know & trust that I can be myself with.

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          7 hours ago

          I hear ya. I’m participating in a hiring panel and finding it really tough to reject candidates, especially when they’re nice. I just feel so much for them.

          Hard not to start building a tough shell, take care of yourself

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      18 hours ago

      Suppose I have it similar, don’t remember when exactly I got into knives but was depressed since 14 so it correlates.