Hi everybody! My schedule has been really unforgiving, so I may or may not end up writing something and making changes to the post later in the week.
Regardless, I hope you all have a good week!
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hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i’ll add you to the list!
the list as it stands:
cummynism2cumharder (2/10 - 2/16) GayTuckerCarlson* (2/17 - 2/23) EstraDoll (2/24 - 3/2) oscardejarjayes* (3/3 - 3/9) Eco* (3/10 - 3/16) * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters
Hi, I’d be interested in making a mega thread but I’ve never done one before.
no problem! basically i send you the title and the stuff to add at the bottom and you can just write whatever you want above it. you can do next week’s if you want, alternatively you can have a week to plan stuff out, it’s whatever you wanna do
I can do this upcoming week! I just make a normal post in https://hexbear.net/c/traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns?
yes! i’ll add you to the list and just send you the stuff in a message now
I think perhaps the truest sign my sister accepts me as a fellow woman is she is happy, even enthusiastic, to have deranged conversations about Shipping with me.
about an hour into my shift at work today and I felt the overwhelming compulsion to drop to my knees and start praying to Venus and I’ve never been remotely religious in my life so idk even know what to do with this information
my 1st ever pair of glasses
legitimately cannot believe i was driving without them
i hope the frames look cute on me (i think they do but they are p large)…
friendship, dysphoria
I still don’t get how things go from “we see each other in class and interact positively” to “we text regularly outside of obligations and make an effort to spend time together”, let alone “we travel to see each other and consider each other close”. My classmates have all been in school together for years already. These people have histories and pasts with each other. I don’t know if I’ll ever have a past or a history or a long-running kind of anything with anyone. A Man Without Relation.
Someone asked me what I do outside of school and my brain short-circuited. All I felt comfortable saying was “YouTube” because “smoke weed and wish I were a girl” is kind of off-putting? Runner ups include failing to choose a new TV show or video game, or pacing around my apartment.
I wish there were a way to guarantee that a social interaction would be positive. I feel like I just keep waiting for a social cue that isn’t coming, some obvious sign that it’s okay to ask questions, it’s okay to say how I feel, it’s okay to want to hang out. I can’t imagine any outcome other than a no. Truly.
If I felt like I could try and make girl friends without feeling like a guy who is trying to make girl friends and more like someone who is just naturally becoming friends with people who are naturally and obviously becoming friends with him/them, then maybe it would be easier. If I just were a girl, and just were 7 years younger, maybe, but obviously it didn’t happen that way.
Like goddamn I just want to be cute and silly and whisper about dumb shit in my room together and go shopping and try on makeup and outfits and hold hands and gaze at the stars and go on drives and shit. If I knew how and where and when to want that you would have to put me down to get me to stop having that for myself. I’m that fucking confused and livid at everyone and everything
alcohol , stress venting
Just broke a bottle of whiskey the minute I got home from buying it. Not only do I have to clean it up now, but I have to go buy even more because I feel stupid and want to drink even more.
I am so fucking sick of getting 2/3 through a day and having something happen that negates all of that and makes me want to throw a brick at someone. I literally don’t care that the day was going fine. I was on my way to RELAX and now there’s more bullshit.
I’m getting plastered. I’m pissed . Whoever invented plastic bags needs to go away. Whoever made bottles round so they can roll needs to go away. Whoever made the floor hard needs to go away.
It’s like the fucking Odyssey getting from my last obligation of the day to the point that I can fucking relax. And then I get 3 hours of sleep over the course of 7, and it all starts again
This isn’t even what I wanted to complain about but I’m like seething right now. I’m dysphoric about a completely different set of problems. Let me get drunk, life, please.
Getting tired of Skyrim, must be time to wrap up. My brain as I’m about to fall asleep. Make a gay vampire
upvote if you support woke
LMFAO
LIKE I KNOW I’M SLEEP DEPRIVED AND MANIC and pretty drunk but like
holy shit lmao
My THPS2X character’s tits are too big and my torso derendered hahahahaha
tw; all sorts of things from medical, to sex codes in rural areas, and dysphoria really acting up
spoiler
So my dysphoria is so bad lately I got second hand chest dysphoria from the pecs of six-fingered AI generated muscle builders. Why, wtf is wrong with me, those are pecs not tiddies. I’d whine to my therapist but I’m having insurance issues, so I’ll whine to strangers on the internet.
Also I found out that dude hollering at other dudes does that for a living, saw him trying to drum up business outside a local store. I just never expected that level of solicitation in this rural area since out here they still do the foot work bathroom sex code deal, and these aren’t old dudes these are like college aged.
Anyway, that was just dysphoria being trigger hair, good to know, sort of foreshadowed the grade it’s at now. It really doesn’t help I’m off that med now and my monthly is like pre-T grade PCOS heavy where nothing stops the flow and I’m afraid to use cups after I got it stuck in sideways and I couldn’t break the seal for what seemed like forever. I’ll feel a lot better once its over I hope.
One of the other grad students just told me that my outfits are always so cute. This gal’s killing it 😎
Anyone have good tips on hiding chest growth in a way that isn’t stiflingly hot? I’m not too worried about it day to day but this summer I may end up at some family functions with family I have no interest in coming out to and am thinking that hoodies won’t work in those temps (I am pretty heavyset so it doesn’t really stand out much yet but still.) I might just send it, people are very oblivious, but if anyone’s got experience…
found an estrofem pill from like 2 years ago in my pillsplitter. and ate it
transphobic administration, CSA
“Give up on saving trans kids or we will de facto re-legalize child pornography” is certainly a new low.
Tfw dysphoric
but also Friday Rice
