Wish I could relate. Never had insecurities about being too smol, but also can’t say I hated it either. Would have preferred an innie to and outie, but that was always a “too bad, oh well” kind of thing. Orchis, otoh, were something I realized I’d be happy to have an excuse to get around the same time, but I just blamed that on secret shame about sexuality that was so secret I was unaware of it. Should have probably have noticed a trend, but I never thought those two thoughts were remotely related.