But when I walk outside, I know everyone will just see me as a gay man. That thought kills me because that’s not what I am. It makes going out a lot less fun for me.

Back before I had done any sort of real introspection about my gender or sexuality, I liked that a lot of people suspected I was gay. But that’s most because being a cishet is lame and why would anyone want to be that? In my case, I don’t think even think it was because of my presentation or mannerisms. Still would prefer people think I’m gay than allocishet, but probably would not like it now.