when I am at work i spent most of my time like this because i have so many people to deal with, i can’t engage with things very deeply and i was feeling bad about it for a while. if i’m afraid i’m going to be interrupted (fuck Slack) then i won’t be able to sink into that deep focus that i need to be productive, so i mostly stay on the surface except in rare situations.

Have one task for work I do most months and it requires several hours and lots of cross-checking things and I can only meaningfully do it if in a more focus-mode. Which usually means I choose a single night and stay up really late working on it at home. Usually I work evenings, except during the summer, so its not an issue if I stay up til 6am. Except I’m also expected to do it right at the end of my summer schedule before transiting back to evening schedule… which means I just blow it off and do it late every year.