urmums401k [she/her, they/them]

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Secret third thing to your ‘fight or flight’ reflex. Find a way to coax that out to mitigate panic. Which is to say: even if you lack the courage to gaze long into that abyss; you should try sticking any dicks you might have in there.

Okay so you know how we like to insert “AI” as a magical cure all solution to all our problems? And anything proposed to someone in power after 2021 must have “AI” in it?

And you know how AI doesn’t actually exist and all the current shit we’re calling that is a junk bullshit thing thats literally just autocorrect juiced up exponentially from ‘runs as part of my phones keyboard app’ to ‘data center that requires a dedicated nuclear power plant’ and that barely improves it because this technology, on top of not being something that can lead to intelligence, has ridiculously diminishing returns?

And you know how when you try to explain any part of that to anyone with any money or power, their eyes just glaze over as they mentally categorize you as a hater/heretic, because FOMO and needing to believe because their world order us clearly dying and only believing in the magical power of AI fairy dust can ward off both the terrible communists who will steal their toothbrush and/or dismantle their power to call down unlimited violence on anyone they think has cooties and solve all the ways their way of life is going to end a life on earth without them having to grow or change at all?

And you know how they dont understand jack shit about autistic people unless we explain ourselves in terms of utility to them, but they can only take like two sentences before they get bored and wander off to pretend theyre having a conversation while 500db music plays distorted over speakers that really werent meant for thst, or get some friends together for a lynching, or whatever NT’s do for fun?

This is taking two magical intelligence related machines you dont understand and saying they’ll go well together. Possibly after reading/watching some mid 20th century SciFi about child soldiers being really good at killing aliens.

I’m not 100% sure thats better.

Dumber. Funnier. Maybe better?

We… We actually did get that from them, kind of directly.

Thats kind of why I want to see it.

Still bet they make more of a difference than libs.

Expressing does not mean “with your mouth honestly”.

Remember that action is more satisfying than words; a little goes a long way, and if you open your mouth you can’t do shit.

Like wearing black at a protest.

Conflating a relatively precise attempt to put the brakes on a war that coukd go nuclear and a Nazi doxxing himself with classified documents over discord yo impress his friends in the last paragraph. Fuck that rag.

Tried some over the phone shit. They promised me a conclusion for my time, and just said ‘okay let’s schedule a follow up’ in the last three minutes. You just lucked out.

To be fair we dont let the firefighters we trained as slaves enlist as non-slave firefighters. So we need the slaves, how else will we put the fires out? Plus, the number who try to enlist shows they actually like the work! So its actually fine!

Well it was still developing. It originally came from this one city in the alps at the end of the old austro Hungarian empire, and it was basically fuckpiles cocaine street fights theory cocaine fuck piles cocaine street fights amphetamines and cocaine 24/7 between different groups of radicals. Kind of a 19th century dress uniform version of a punk festival. Lotta interesting lefties came out of it too.

But thats where fascism comes from, its people afraid to live exist or think adopting our insurrectionist ethos for their paranoid hateful cult of oblivion. Who took that first baby step and were like ‘okay but existing is too much and shouldnt be allowed’. Or at least was originally.

Now with a century more under its belt it has defined itself, and it has come out in opposition not just to variety but to the very concepts of beauty and art. I think this was inevitable, but it hadn’t been codified yet, so there was a kind of appeal to it, to what, if you didn’t look so close, it might’ve been possible to believe it could have been-still fucked up enough to count as an illness, but pretty kinds of horrible. Marinetti diving into a jet engine as he cums on his 40th birthday with a canvas on the other side more than the einsatzgrupen and Dachau.

Again; I think this was inevitable. Its the only conclusion, but they hadn’t made it yet. It looked less comprehensively repulsive when it was young.

I think the situations described are perfectly lovely instances of appreciating their virtues. As long as you still pull that trigger, or paste a refugees photo into that ID.

It’s like, okay, if you put me back in time with a gun standing in front of Coco Chanel; I’m still gonna shoot her, but I’m going to shoot her in the head if i have the choice, because her outfit shouldnt be wasted. Y’know?

Its a proof of concept! Here’s Hoping for like a quaker jihad against the state.

I once got a psychiatrist who assumed everything the extremely literal autistic girl said was metaphor and completely made up my patient history. Like a fucking dick wolf script. Now I have to explain to every doctor I see who reads the chart that, no, none of that is true, that dude literally just made up everything he wrote. No I don’t want to talk about it, that was a decade ago, shit that didn’t happen, and I have real problems I’d like to deal with. No this isn’t trauma from the-no I’m just sick of repeating myself, and have real trauma from things that actually happe- No I’m not seeking drugs, I’ve never done meth; I don’t even like stimulants! Another just called to have me locked up because I looked sad. The police came to my house, and I lived in a slum so that could have gone very very badly for more than just me. Probably would have if my other roommate had answered. Oh and once an inpatient one drugged andremovedd me. Might’ve been lower staff, but the psychiatrist is the one who decided to keep me there, and other patients noticed, so I think its safe to assume I wasn’t the first and staff knew.

There is so much risk to talking to one of those slimy pieces of shit, everything they say is lies, and even if youre the most obvious case in the world they can just decide not to help you. They’re a fucking blight and I support giving every single one of them the fucking wall.

And thats even apart from most psych meds being trash and most of the good shit for common mental illnesses being illegal anyway.

I’ve gotten pretty close but I just can’t deal with the profoundly disrespectful behavior of literally every psychiatrist I’ve ever met, so I just gave up.

There is no hope.

Well, Christianity usually bad, LLM’s usually horrible, its just all our fav hateables bunched up real tight. Its not like they’re reading this.

Also uses more of everything and will kill us all.

To be fair, insane protestant religious fanatics improved things in middle america at least once, back when Kansas was becoming a state.

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Short version:

There’s a secret third thing to the fight or flight reflex, and you should absolutely put your dick in the depths of that abyss, even if you lack the courage to gaze long into them. Might help with panic generally, but will definitely make you a more interesting person.

Fuck. Remember when fascists were new enough of a thing that some of them still had scraps of art left in them? No you dont, it’s mostly out of living memory, but it must have sucked very slightly less. You could admire a fascists fit while lining up a shot or cutting their photo out of an ID card or panicking that they found you and the only way out is to jump, or whatever.

Have you tried radicalizing her? It… Well it might be a little late, but the whole ‘you are a human who deserves rights’ thing might be appealing.