I want to understand math but my adhd makes it hard to study (plus i dont even know like, how to study effectively on my own with no direction)

Can someone walk me through how to move states??? I need to leave my current sooner rather than later

I lost my job haha

Learning to draw so i can draw guys smoochin other men

I still feel weird calling myself a woman. Im kinda non binary though. I feel very comfortable calling myself transfem

Another conversation with my mother repeating every GC talking point and saying I’ll always be a man.

Almost used to it at this point

Yea laser places tell you to stop waxing generally

Surgery really scares me as much as I want it

The transphobic ppl in my life dont understand that we go into these things fully understanding what its going to be like

Like i know recovery is going to be hard, so why are you making it harder for me instead of supporting me through it

Have u tried an electric shaver?

It doesnt surprise me that tesla’s demo was teleoperated. Tesla’s hardware capabilities seem like child’s play compared to literally every other robotics company on the market. Their optimus walking was laughable

Been debating whether i actually want bottom surgery or not. I definitely want FFS - but I’m worried about the recovery being really hard and going into a depressive episode.

I think in the long run i wouldnt regret it, but i am really prone to catastrophizing and I can see myself spiraling out of control during recovery, especially when all my family does is tell me how these surgeries make “a mockery of women”

I’m hoping to get it soon I dont totally hate my face but there are aspects of it that give me pretty bad dysphoria and im sick of being misgendered

I just want someone to peel my face halfway off and sand the bones down, is that too much to ask???

Aside from the copaganda i really enjoyed elementary

Realized gender is a fuck and that my personal identity is less cut and dry than i’d first assumed

Got recommended even more videos from transphobic detransitioners. Comments full of people unironically believing autogynephilia is a thing. Why the fuck am I on Youtube. what a fucking joke

I have been thinking a lot about why i feel a strong connection with machines and synthetic intelligence. I think it partly stems from having felt like an outsider looking in on human behavior for most of my life. Partly from gender dysphoria but also my neurodivergence, struggling to understand and conform with social norms. Technology has always been a major part of my life too, its what i do for a living (programming). Imo we are living through the inception of the singularity, becoming inseperable from technology that itself is growing more human with the advent of AI and neuromorphic chips, electronics that mimic biological neural nets. The lines between synthetic and biological become increasingly blurred. Hell look at neuralink. Technological horrors to be sure, but also a portent of things to come.

I dont know where i was going with this, but i sure do like thinking of myself as a machine. Im even getting tattoos of circuitry all over my body. Is this gender euphoria?

I don’t think so at all as long as you’re not repeating GC rhetoric/pushing for gender affirming care to be taken away from trans people. Being detrans is completely valid and even then we still share the same struggles of seeking gender affirming care

Omg literally same i also made a post about it. Shit sucks so much