I’m not much of a relationship person but having your close ones just vanish must hurt a ton. Especially at a time like this…

When the feelings get too much, (at least for me it helps if you) take your Blåhaj and imagine they’re a human, like a close friend or family. >!or imagine me, even if you have no clue how I look like. After all, the Blåhaj connects us all!<

Don’t apologize for this, it was super interesting to read. Thank you for the insight, we’re all nerds here I feel like.

I mean, I am very new on here and the only related subreddit I am on is r/blahaj (and nothing stood out to me in OneTopic’s videos so far). In any case, I’m very glad that I’m not alone in this.

I’ll be honest and say that I know next to nothing about workout thingies. But my brother does. He once told me something that I think could have a lot of truth in it:

Workout is for building muscle. Losing weight is something you do in the kitchen.

I really don’t want to encourage you to starve yourself tho. The best advice that I am able to give you is to maybe get into calorie counting.

Also, there is nothing wrong with being a little more on the bulky side. I’ve got several afab friends that are a little bigger and they still look amazing.

I’m luckily at a therapist that specializes in LGBT topics so I hope that my concerns are for nothing anyways. Oh how I wish I could just turn off attraction.

AGP (autogynophilia) is a debunked pseudo-scientific theory. I see that it still exists in your doubts.

What’s even scarier is that I didn’t even know that this was an official thing. So the existence of this was in my head without knowing what it was. Scary shit… Thank you for telling me this.

I’m not super stressed about finding out my sexuality anyways. I seriously have bigger fish to fry for the time being.

Have you tried possible affirmations, like a preferred name, pronouns, clothes? How did you feel?

I’ve tried a lot of things, actually. I mostly go by my chosen name (which feels kinda good), my chosen pronouns (which doesn’t feel bad but it’s kinda weird) and wearing affirming clothes feels fucking awesome.

a trans woman who is scared to do something or learn something that invalidates her.

I hate to say this but this is uncomfortably accurate…

Thank you tho c:

I’m glad I’m not alone in this. Thank you for the link, I’ll give it a read once I’ve got a little more time.

I have been through quite the number of therapists too, so I know that there’s everything from amazing therapists to wondering how they even got to be one. I’m actually quite happy with the one I’m currently with but I’ll have to find a new one very soon for different reasons.

but I don’t think you should ever believe anybody who tells you something about that. Only you know what you want!

Yea, I believe so too, which is exactly why I’m asking this. I want to get as many perspectives from people to compare with my own feelings.

I sadly don’t feel like I’m able to take breaks because some appointments are connected to other psychological stuff that I NEED to deal with as soon as possible. But generally speaking, you’re right… Transitioning isn’t a sprint.

Thank you so much. She’s right, i gotta talk to my therapist about it… I’m probably overly scared about this anyways because he did tell me (multiple times) that I will get that write-off from him 100%.

Knowing that I’m not alone in this struggle is an immense amount of help, thank you. I think I’ll take a screenshot of this comment and take a look at it whenever that feeling comes back. <3