no i know, it’s okay i hope i wasn’t too hard on you it’s just a general trend in the online left that’s bugged me for a while, and i thought it was a good opportunity & might be helpful to you, me, and anyone reading this thread to maybe explore/clarify exactly why i find it problematic in more detail. kinda as a collective learning/growth thing, idk

i feel like you don’t do a lot of scenario-based bit posts and you should do more, this one made me laugh! i associate u more with unchained stream of consciousness

i want to be a piece of shit i want to get worse i want to be more and more and more of this type of animal anymore

dating in organizing struggle sesh lets go im really gonna try and make this shit happen this time

weird hexbear prudes vs the like countless married couples in a lot of actual orgs lets fucking goooooooooooooooo

just kidding i dont have the energy for struggle sessions i just like to be a piece of shit rascal and stir the pot then dip

(but also uh imagine being a socialist and thinking the only acceptable means of dating are atomized compartmentalized venues outside your actual community)

same bestie :')

hey comrade, i know you already apologized, but i still want to point to this post as an example of why i take such issue with casual DoomJerking:

a good chunk of the people on this website you know and (hopefully) care about are in the PSL, even if you don’t know it. These are the people you’re talking so flippantly about being sent to do brutal slave labor for trying to create a better world - and on strong average, it’s way harder to talk about these things in such a detached and offhand manner if you’re actually in the crosshairs and taking the punches and risks of state violence like that. now, i don’t want to make any presumptions about what kind of irl organizing you are or aren’t a part of, but DoomJerking does imply a degree of comfortable, detached distance from the matter that really rubs me the wrong way. this is me and about half of the people i love you’re talking about when you make posts like this - it’s not an abstraction, these are flesh and blood human beings who have inspired each other & created bonds of love with each other that are hard to overstate. please just try to be mindful of this, even when you are feeling deeply depressed and disillusioned with current conditions (which is completely understandable).

again, i know you did apologize and post a more optimistic sentiment afterward and this is a bigger trend than just you. i just thought it was a good opportunity to hammer out some issues with this kind of thing (which goes way beyond you or this single post of yours so don’t feel too bad) in more detail.

vyvanse continues to be overall positive but i definitely need to adjust my caffeine intake down to compensate being on a different stimulant

two hours into first vyvanse and i cant tell if its confirmation bias/wishful thinking/placebo but uh my mind feels actually quiet??? for the first time in recent memory??? :')

probably dumb to take my first vyvanse in the late afternoon but im too dang curious about how i’m gonna respond to it so i couldn’t wait! (could you tell adhd causes impulsivity? )

also i used to love staying up late doing my thing and the meds may enable me to do just that. was thinking of calling out from work tomorrow anyway so doesn’t matter if my sleep is too cooked.

def the new voices, the chapos range from “a certain unprofessional lo-fi charm” at best to “downright awful” at worst

watching the presentation on the scrapped disco elysium expansion from before the original team got fucked by capitalism is making me miserably fuckin depressed, man

cuno…cuno fucking cares

and r glad ur alright

nah i think we mostly just like you cousin <3

aw i love him!!! reminds me of my grub from hollow knight plush who talks when you squeeze him. one day the battery is gonna die and he’ll just have to talk in my imagination but i’ve had him for many years and his voicebox is still going.

high key arpil fools ableist against autistic ppl and i will die on this hill

I don’t feel especially drawn to being a woman, although being male is very ehh honestly.

i don’t really resonate with the egg-crack language b/c it feels very binary trans centric to me (maybe that’s just internalized phobia though, i really don’t know), but it took me a while to realize cis men and cis women don’t generally feel indifferent toward masculinity and femininity respectively, and that made me consider whether i might be on the agender spectrum. it’s just something to consider - honestly, when you get into the realm of “very gender-nonconforming cis guy” and “some flavor of enby,” the line gets kind of murky and arbitrary (in a freeing - not minimizing - kind of way, in that gender can really be whatever Feels Right). to elaborate, someone in this thread already brought up how being cis-but-gay opens up so, so much more variance in socially acceptable gender expression, and a lot of more outwardly queer gay dudes are probably more nonconforming than I am and are comfortable at “he/him” whereas I’m not, so there truly is a very vibes-based, it-is-what-you-feel dimension to all this.

i do think immediately saying “hehe eggposting” isn’t very respectful of your individual journey and falls into the trap a lot of queer people do where they project their personal self discovery process onto others as some universal roadmap, and can lean into gender essentialist bullshit. i’ve also never been a fan of the “cis people don’t think about gender, if you’re thinking about it a lot you’re trans” line because, while it may contain a grain of truth, i think everyone should be encouraged to think about gender intentionally. e.g., you really think a super cishet gymbro isn’t chasing some version of gender euphoria trying to get swole?? (also, certain anxiety disorders cause you to obsessively interrogate questions of identity even if the experiences of those identities clearly don’t line up with your personal experience (iykyk))

my middling posting lately is good opsec, actually

i’ll never post such a banger that im reluctant to account reset

It’s one full paycheck per year.

that amount is strongly encouraged but in practice (at least in my local) it’s pretty much pay what you can and no one comes after you if you pay less. if you think you’d be valuable to the movement as a full member i’d say go for it regardless of apprehension around dues and just pay what you’re comfortable with.

nothing wrong with just being an active fellow traveler/friend of the party though! for every full member we need a ton of ya’ll, there’s no one right or wrong way to be involved.