I won’t drink today

I will not drink today, but I’m not gonna pretend I’m happy about it. I decided to try the “Sober October” challenge and I’ve only managed 1 day so far (I did not drink yesterday). I’ve realized I’m just getting too old to drink the way I have been for a long time, and I honestly feel sad that I’m going to have to leave that lifestyle behind, because I’ve always enjoyed drinking and had a lot of fun doing it (judge me if you want to, I don’t care), but I just can’t hang the way I used to, and it’s bumming me out.