…until it is someone with narcissistic personality disorder, psychopathy and sociopathy, but mostly NPD.
EDIT: There seems to be some misunderstandings about this post. It is not an attack on this community or the users here, it’s just a general vent I have for the type of people that claim to be anti-ableist until it is something they don’t like.
I mean, you are doing the exact same thing that my NPD parent would do, which is getting defensive instead of attempting to communicate your thoughts through arguments while attempting to understand other’s perspectives.
There are many neurodivergent people that have a number of issues because of untreated/undiagnosed NPDs that refuse to acknowledge they need assistance. Just the idea of being called narcissistic is offensive.
The most voted comments might not agree with OP but they are being very polite. I don’t see the terrible behavior you are seeing.
Yes, I’ve been called a nar*******t and it was deeply offensive. It reminds me of the times I got called a re***d, or a sp**g, or a fa***t, or a tr***y. Half of those other slurs are also spins on the name of a mental disorder.
Marginalised, oppressed people are not responsible for empathising with our oppressors. While doing so can often be helpful to our causes, it should never be considered a requirement, and it should certainly never be called out by majorities demanding that we do it in order to earn respect. It’s impossible to dehumanise, attack, and villify someone for how they were born, and then reasonably expect them to be civil, polite, and empathetic. Some of us, like myself, are polite and empathetic, and we do take the time to understand how our oppressors feel. But we are the exception, and there’s a very compelling reason why that is.
You were asked to attempt to better communicate by presumably another neurodivergent person in a neurodivergent community. Don’t use some bullshit analogy of oppression to justify your lack of empathy.
Hey, um, you’re all over this thread and you seem like you’ve really got an axe to grind here. What’s your story?
My parents were abusive, and I never developed the part of my brain that feels inherent self love and worth. I got a personality disorder. And I had the right genetics and environment to get NPD out of that abuse instead of another personality disorder like BPD or ASPD. That means my fake self-esteem comes from grandiose self ideas instead of defining myself by another person or by rejecting society utterly like those other disorders.
This wasn’t a problem until I entered young adulthood. Over a period of about a year, I came to terms with my NPD. And then I proceeded to suffer many years of abuse for my disorder. It started before I ever knew the disorder, when society told me narc****sts were evil abusers. My exploration of my disorder started as a fear. I thought it was paranoia at first. But no, my worst fears were true, I had childhood trauma and genetic bad luck, and that combination made me what society considers the worst thing a person can be. According to someone in this thread, we’re basically the same as pedophiles.
I never abused anyone. Never manipulated anyone. I know it says exploitative behaviour is a criterion in the DSM, but first off the DSM is full of bad information on personality disorders, and second you don’t have to have any of the “bad” criteria to quality for the disorder. I’m haughty, pompous. I dream of greatness. I’m easily hurt when I fail or when I’m threatened. Quick to anger, but only in self defence. I can turn my empathy off at will. According to hundreds of people I have met, that makes me a born abuser. A monster.
Someone doesn’t even have to know I have NPD to sense it. For some reason, a lot of people take someone else’s big ego, even if it’s a private affair, as a personal attack. I’m not even allowed to think highly of myself, because according to some people that’s inequality and fascism. And yet if I don’t, then I don’t fundamentally feel that I’m worthy of love. I don’t think I deserve to live. It’s trauma. It’s a disorder.
I’m the only person I’ve ever hurt with my NPD. But the vilification by others has done far worse to me. They demand humility. If I’m not humble, they say I deserve to die. If I am humble, I think I deserve to die.
And here comes OP, saying my pain is right. That I do deserve to feel upset by how many people don’t believe in support for “monsters” like me. And yet with such an inoffensive, kind post, everyone has to change the subject to supposed abuses I am responsible for, just for having my brain the way it is.
I respond with the anger borne of the trauma of a lifetime of abuse from society. And that anger is justified. I do not speak with violence, I do not attack, but I am, privately, angry.
Oh wow, I know you are venting here and I don’t want to take that from you. I get that you are frustrated. I have a similar story and am also mostly incapable of self-love or self-worth. But instead of turning out a pwNPD, I got to have all the empathy my mother is lacking.
But please, you are doing standard victim blaming here. It’s probably not worth going into detail here because you don’t seem self-aware enough to get why your actions may be perceived very differently by others than by you.
I get that society is in so far unfair to people with NPD or pedophiles because it does usually only portrait their worst qualities. But neither pwNPD nor pedophiles are monsters. That’s why I compared NPD to pedophilia in my other comment. You have the traits to abuse others, but the choice is still yours. People with pedophilia also deserve our empathy. The struggle must be really hard on you. In yet another comment I cited many studies I found on NPD and what they basically all talked about was not only the abusiveness and lack of empathy of pwNPD but also the strong interpersonal problems they face.
I’m sorry for you, but please at least try to be a bit self-aware and don’t gaslight us into thinking pwNPD are not commonly abusive and manipulative.
Disclaimer: English isn’t my first language + adhd so I apologize if I end up repeating myself or if the thoughts aren’t well organized
I am glad someone asked your story and I am glad that you took the time to write this. Like I stated previously, my experience with people from my family with NPD creates a certain bias. I don’t want to make this about myself but I want to give you some context: Like the other reply to you, I have an NPD parent and instead of also developing NPD, I am a very empathetic person that have a lot of difficulty being kind to myself, which isn’t the case to one of my siblings (all of us have some kind of disorder though).
My first contact with the concept of NPD was while attempting to understand said parent which got me to a few communities for people with toxic parents. These were not positive communities, people were suffering a lot with these toxic relationships so it was pretty much a lot of frustrated people attempting to find comfort and to understand why their parents had to be toxic like that. It is really rare to have someone opening up as NPD like you are so we really don’t have a lot of perspective from an NPD person.
I see you and I empathize with you and I don’t want you to think that everyone believes that NPD people were evil or anything like that. Unfortunately because it appears to be difficult to convince people with NPD that they are harming people around them, the ones that suffer harm are usually more vocal. I think everyone here agrees that just because you have NPD you aren’t evil or an abuser (and yes the pedophile example by the other user was out of touch).
You don’t need to be humble, you just need to understand that there are people that suffered with abusive parents like you did and some of them were NPD parents.
I love my NDP parent and I have a lot of empathy for them. I believe deeply that they deserve support, I don’t believe they are evil but they do act evil sometimes. I had to move to another country to have a better relationship with them, but I am glad I am now in a place where I understand everything that they went through and why they ended up the way they are. I think I might be one of the few people in our family that has patience to deal with them and that actually puts effort into trying to make them see different perspectives.
I think this thread would have developed better if it was a discussion on how NDPs are perceived and how NPDs can be better assisted to make things better for everyone instead of just a vent, but people get frustrated and that’s okay. I don’t want to marginalize anyone, I want you to feel understood but we all need to put a bit of effort when trying to understand each other. There’s no need to feel personally attacked with how people view/deal with NDPs.
I don’t know your story and I don’t know if your parent has a diagnosis. But those “victims of NPD” support groups? 90% of the people in them do not have a parent with a diagnosis. 90% of those people heard that narc*****st is a synonym for abuser, have judged correctly that their parents are abusive, and have concluded incorrectly that their parents have NPD. American pop psychology has a decades long tradition of publishing self help books that say we are all surrounded by narc*****sts, every abusive person in our lives is a narc*****st, and that the root of all evil is people with a mental disorder.
You know why that is? Because telling people their problems are caused by a vulnerable minority that can’t defend itself is a great way to get money and influence. That’s how Hitler took over Germany. He said “I know you’re all upset by our nation’s poverty, and you know whose fault it is? The Jews!” That’s the playbook modern politicians are using with the idea of abusive trans people. There is such a thing as abusive trans people, I’ve met plenty of them. But there’s no link between those two traits, there’s just abusers in every demographic. Same with NPD. The fact that Zuckerberg is evil and Jewish doesn’t mean Jews are evil. Same with NPD.
The issue here is propaganda. People have been propagandized, and those 90% who are clinging onto a myth because it makes their trauma make sense, are dangerous. We need to use the same tactics to defend pwNPD that we use to defend trans people and Jewish people.
Thank you so much for asking this. I don’t know why I didn’t think about asking, I will keep this in mind for next time!