• RyanGosling [none/use name]@hexbear.net
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    7 months ago

    What you say may be true, but reading about le communism and “organizing” doesn’t make me feel any better. Maybe I am contributing to a better society, but it doesn’t make ME feel any better. And that’s the thing honestly. For me, being knowledgeable about the larger forces that exploit us and trying to help others or voicing my discontent is just a cope because it’s easier to look at something so nebulous and grand than it is to look at myself and contribute to ME. I hate Jordan Peterson or motivational video type assholes, but honestly, there are times where I envy that such people are simple minded enough to hear some asshole yell at them and get up and do something to change themselves for the worse; and I don’t mean that I’m not simple minded or smarter than anyone for being depressed and apathetic - I just think those people are idiots lol.

    It doesn’t matter if society instantly turns into a communist utopia tomorrow and therapy is reformed or whatever. You can’t change someone; they have to want it themselves, or at the very least they have to believe there’s light at the end of the tunnel. But for me it’s like driving in the tunnel and seeing 50 different routes towards the light on the GPS, and I just sit there in the darkness.