I’m a girly girl, I love pink, Cath Kidston and Disney. I really like Butterflies! Thus Lady Butterfly was born

Generic words are harder to find in search engines, plus i like snek

My parents.

I post under my real name both out of nostalgia for usenet (the original federated forum) where it was customary to use your real name in Germany. And to be able to post identifying information without fear of being “discovered”.

With enough data points and a little investigation it is ridiculously easy to identify a single user. My wife demonstrated that to me a few years back when she identified some anonymous bloggers and turned out to be correct. Otherwise I might be tempted to post really private stuff under the misguided impression that I am anonymous.

Oh shit, story time again. I’m going with the short version because I have some ideas in my head I need to set into my current project, but still.

So, the user name southsamurai used to be southern samurai. But that’s too long for a lot of games and forums, so it got shortened.

But southern samurai goes back to the early naughties. I have been into martial arts in one form or another since my early twenties. And, as it so happens, most of what I trained in was Japanese in origin, at least in the forms I learned. This included sword stuff. Mostly casual, really, I never was some kind of master. Barely good enough to teach noobs, and only noobs.

Anyway, by the time the century turned, I was as good as I’ll ever get. I was also working a lot. 60 plus hours a week, and kinda more since one of my patients needed care overnight. But it was semi off books, and it was essentially some pocket money for sleeping there instead of at home, and being there if he needed something.

So, of an evening, I would exercise. I had put on some weight over the years after I stopped lifting, and hadn’t adjusted my diet and exercise well. The biggest I’ve ever been.

So, when I was out in the side yard, where my patient could call to me, I’d do various stuff.

The neighbor decided it was entertaining to yell out sumo from across the road. I dunno, I guess a fat dude doing rolls and falls means sumo to him. Dude was bigger around than me anyway, and I shrugged it off.

But, one evening, I’m doing sword stuff. Cutting tatami in specific. It’s fun as hell once your get the basic techniques down, btw. Very meditative, but fun.

He decides to come over and watch. Eventually he gets my attention and cracks a joke about sumo again. I kinda rolled my eyes internally and pulled an “actually” card out in the hope it would bore him and he’d bugger off. Described the difference between sumo and what I was doing, and that most of the stuff I did was to samurai than sumo.

He cracked and said I had to be the fattest samurai in the south. Which tickled me a little since he was fatter, and I still could have picked him up and thrown him. My patient weighed about the same as this guy, and I carried him. So it was funny instead of insulting.

I laughed at him, cut the tatami closest to him and packed up for the night.

After I told the longer version of the story to some friends, it turned into a bit of a nickname. Mostly online, but irl too. And it stuck.

Sadly, I’m not the only one using the exact user name, though I think I’m the only one on lemmy. There’s also another half dozen using variants of it.

The moment I was creating my user, I checked and I wasn’t a velociraptor.

I’m an Irish jewish cephalopod.

I don’t even really remember to be honest x)

My first love was called “Cloud” (translated name).

I used to have names I cherished, but then started wanting to delete accounts every once in a while. I set up an account on lichess with a pun album title, so I looked around the room, saw my skullgrid poster and went with that.

I knew I loved the name Rose, and wanted to try exploring it as a part of my identity in any way possible, especially when I wasn’t really using it fully as a name yet.

Turns out, many of us have done this. I have run into so many variants of “Rose Thorn”, and like 90% of the time it’s been a fellow transwoman.

My main programming language is Typescript. Also one of the first I’ve taught myself.

I used a random username generator and somehow it generated something that perfectly applied to me

All the more unusual ones were taken.

How I feel because I don’t understand other people…

it used to be John gray.

because John doe is some unknown person, and the color gray can be like for something unknown, was my logic

then I shorten it to jgray and someone online keep calling me Jay.

so here I am

doesn’t take a genius why there’s 91 at the end.