I specifically didn’t have kids because of my own father.
Turned out later in life I regretted it and wished I had made more of an effort to have a child, I think I would have been an okay father. I learned from the worst how to not be the worst, I just had way too many demons to battle through adulthood before I felt remotely capable of raising another human and not breaking them also, so it’s probably good that I didn’t, but having nieces and nephews made me really wish I could have experienced that kind of love.
It’s too late now, but I think about what alternate lives would have been like. I wonder if we get to experience every possible instance of our own lives.
I specifically didn’t have kids because of my own father.
Turned out later in life I regretted it and wished I had made more of an effort to have a child, I think I would have been an okay father. I learned from the worst how to not be the worst, I just had way too many demons to battle through adulthood before I felt remotely capable of raising another human and not breaking them also, so it’s probably good that I didn’t, but having nieces and nephews made me really wish I could have experienced that kind of love.
It’s too late now, but I think about what alternate lives would have been like. I wonder if we get to experience every possible instance of our own lives.