Some insights:

My dad is for sure my no. 1 trigger. He’s sick and taking his bullshit out on me which made me super fucking angry and depressed so I took out some money and self-medicated.

18 days is pretty good clean time. My personal best is still 20-something days I need to beat.

I noticed I’m right back to hitting the vape as much as I did before, like my tolerance was still pretty high.

So anyway I’m not going to beat myself up too much given the state of well literally everything and me being a mentally ill addict with very few ways to cope.

  • hikeandbike@midwest.socialEnglish
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    21 days ago

    Second what FourteenEyes said! If it helps, maybe think of it as “I’ve hit a vape only 4 out of the past 22 days.”

    You’ve gone 82% of the last 22 days without vaping. That’s a great milestone!

  • FourteenEyes [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    2·
    25 days ago

    Ditch that AA all-or-nothing bullshit. It’s not about streaks. It’s about reducing your dependency on a bad habit.

    Don’t let it derail you. You’re doing well. Stick to the straight and narrow.