Man, I appreciate you. My brother (who is a Christian rapper and doing a totally different thing from me and is a totally different kind of person) is going to put it on Spotify for me.

I’m an unemployed/unemployable nobody so getting new equipment is not possible for me. I’m a stay at home dad. I just work with what I have.

I have a decent setup how with a good 4 track cassette mixer that I can plug into a 15 year old computer and recording this stuff again is almost impossible. That and, I don’t connect with the kid who wrote this stuff and I just wouldn’t feel it right enough to do it again.

I’ve always loved lofi music so I’m just going to keep it where it is.

The stuff I’ve written in the last 5 years though, it will sound better. Not great, but better.

That one song, “No Good, In Spite of it All” is where I am nowadays. Like everyone else, I’m so freaked out with the political situation that I can’t think about myself when I make music anymore. All I can think about is what’s going on. I wrote this one song called eternally evicted, it’s complete shit but I really believe if I put it out in 2020 it might’ve gained some traction. I need to record that one. I never recorded it.

It said,

Hey poor folks, fuck all of y’all Don’t you know, I’ve been saving a while To buy a new vacation house And take my kids to see Mickey Mouse Yours are hungry? Hey, tough shit. You signed the fucking contract All I want is your paycheck, and if you lose it You’re gonna get evicted

You might think I’m a selfish man But I don’t really give a damn I’ve built everything that I have With my foot on the poor man’s back I drive around a luxury cars Well, you and yours pray you don’t starve I’d like to buy another and if you can’t help me You’re gonna get it evicted

You can sleep out in the cold Shit on the side of the road A contract is a contract and if you don’t like it You’re gonna get evicted

Well, hey landlord, what do you preach? What does that book you carry teach? Proverbs 14:31, Timothy 6:6-10 You’re in for a big surprise If god looks in your greedy eyes You won’t get past the gate and you’ll find you’ve been Eternally evicted

Man, it seems like I take myself too seriously with this comment. I promise I don’t. I’m nobody and I’m happy to be nobody. I love music, but I hate musicians haha. Part of why I never shared it I guess. The thought of being a musician who put himself out there made my stomach turn.

I really do appreciate that you guys are listening to my music though. It means the world to me. It really does. I can’t express how much it means to me.

I have always loved music so much, and to think that anyone enjoyed or connected with something I made in the way that I have with artists that I admire, I just can’t even believe it.

Even if it is just a few people and they’re not really taking it that seriously, it’s just a big deal to me. I’m also drunk, and terribly worried about coming off as, I don’t even know., a musician haha.

I just know that it means a lot to me. I’ve sat here doing this quietly for two decades and then some. I don’t ever even think about sharing it, and it’s not because I’m not confident or something like that. I mean, if that guy can do it, why not me? I just didn’t even realize I had a desire for someone to listen to it. Know what I mean?

Again, I’m drunk. It’s been a battle to avoid deleting all of this haha.

Thank you again. I mean it.

It blows my mind that anyone would be interested. I’ve spent 25 years doing this quietly and barely showing anyone. Most of these are old enough to drink haha.

It’s a good feeling.