What the hell does “realistically navigate the real world” mean anymore. I had teachers, therapists, and guidance counselors all working to make sure I had a safe and useful education. Meaning, because I was misdiagnosed, that they would never risk my unhappiness(or their metrics) by allowing me in classes there I might fail because, by their own words, “if you fail at that class, you may be unhappy”. Fuck that shit. I succeed at their goals, not mine and I’m miserable.

I called up my old school recently to try and get them to send me a document stating that because I never fulfilled the basic state requirements, I did not actually graduate. They refused, but accidentally admired that I tested proficient in science, but was still placed in remedial classes. I doubt they think I remember those meetings in grade school, but I do. I remember being calmly explained that I would do better in this class or that class, but they never really explained what “practical” or “modified” or “academic” meant. I remember those meetings. When I talked to my school, I could tell they weren’t expecting me to remember the day we took the HSPA test and how I was pulled out of the regular students and placed in the remedial area despite being told I was declassified or how I shouldn’t have passed because I deliberately failed the writing section. It’s all fucking theater. They’ve been passing everyone for decades regardless of merit and now this country is a joke.