I keep wondering why my life turned out to be so hopeless and miserable. Did I do something in a past life and this is my punishment? Is it bad karma? But then karma has never made sense to me. If you murder someone, and karma decides you then need to be murdered to pay for that, it requires someone else to commit murder so you get your karma. The cycle would never end.

Is the New Age idea that we choose our lives before birth true? Do we choose everything that will happen to us in advance so we can learn something from it? Or is that just cope?

Are we just evolved pondslime who mutated into humans by chance and none of this means anything?

Why is life so incredibly awful for so many people?

  • peppersky [he/him, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    2 months ago

    There are some days when I feel like just a single ray of sunshine bouncing off a lake, just a single gust of wind through the trees or a single pretty melody on my lips could be enough to fill out my entire life.

    Then there are days when the whole world feels emptied out of all beauty and happiness, where the cruelty and totality of capitalism already seems to have wiped out all that is good in the world and we are all just wandering around like the living dead, too weak and numb to even realize it’s all already over.

    I try to be happy for the nice days, even though they don’t come that often recently.

    • DisabledAceSocialist [comrade/them]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
      5·
      2 months ago

      here are some days when I feel like just a single ray of sunshine bouncing off a lake, just a single gust of wind through the trees or a single pretty melody on my lips could be enough to fill out my entire life.

      Being able to spend time outside was what got me through the days before but now I’ve been stuck inside for so long, with no end in sight, it’s just really getting to me and making me feel more hopeless and desperate than usual.