I keep avoiding the topic with myself. I would like to do HRT but I mainly spin the following reasons in my head for not doing it:

  • Muscle loss, I cant work out as often as I would like and it would be visible. I don’t feel secure without some muscle to seem intimidating so I can defend myself. I am rather visibly queer and already get harassed as is for that and wearing a mask. I dont know any self defense and having muscles at least deters some people.

  • I dont want to be dependent for my whole life on estrogen. Logically speaking I want it but I keep thinking in war scenarios, or travelling, or anything impredictable it would basically be near impossible to get and I dont want to depend on something I cannot obtain easily and cant control the circumstances

  • Where I live there are no trans friendly doctors and I do not trust myself with DIY dosages at all. I wouldnt trust the DIY source in the first place, and even then making sure I dont fuck up my own body is too big of a responsability. I likely have OCD and freaking out if I did the dosages correctly or some small random shit would not do me good. Would very much prefer doctors but impossible in my case.

Asides I would really like the changes mentally and physically. I am too hesitant to get into this without proper help from a doctor or such. I’ve been reading HRT materials for at least an year and I still find a lot of the chemistry things confusing and dosages.

  • SamotsvetyVIA [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    2 days ago

    maintained the washboard even though i barely worked out even pre-e. working on gaining weight now and it’s slowly being hidden I think.

    also i mean you can choose not to take e to not be dependent on it your whole life, and in doing so I guess you can just not transition.

    as for estrogen safety, estrogen is estrogen. you can go buy it “diy” from a pharmacy if you’re so concerned. and dosages and guidelines aren’t that difficult, use a “starter”/“typical” dosage and then get a bloodtest if you want to be doubly sure. A “legit” endo won’t care any more than you will, just from experience with all doctors, and given how rare we are, they are more likely to fuck our doses up than we are simply because they don’t know and doctors just can’t seem to admit that they’re not omniscient.