Valentine’s…
Another memo about my failure as an adult. At the warehouse I’m working lots of the package and merch are hearts, plushies, and similar heart shaped stuff, plus some Xmas decorations for some fucking reason…
Is there any way to escape it? I guess not. I probably wouldn’t think too much about it if I was younger but since last week was my bday ready to remind me that I’m getting old… This back to back just crushes me.
That’s a fair point. I have honestly never really sought out a partner before so I don’t have much experience. But I do have experience with the disappointment of losing friends and/or not being able to do much with a friend because they have to prioritize their family above all else. It’s perfectly understandable and not done in an argumentative or problematic way, but it does hurt sometimes. People grow apart from their friends as their friends’ priorities and distances change.
So I’ve been more recently attempting to seek out a significant other because I want a friend who we will mutually prioritize and who won’t be dipping out because of their children or otherwise drifting apart or etc. I don’t even care about or want sex. I just want to have an equal.
It’s maybe wishful thinking on my part. But that’s my goal.