Here’s to a new year! Here’s my first mega try (also first time posting in a while due to reasons) but heya! Admittedly struggled a fair bit with self doubt and anxiety on this one as put it off for a while/other things caught up with me but I figure I’ll be glad I did it once I’ve done it. It’s kinda being done last minute though, so admittedly there’s that…
I’d been intending to make the mega about something else originally when I signed up, but that would require more time on my part (and I just binge read this recently, so it all works out). Anyways, my subject of the week is The Summer Hikaru Died; it’s a queer (BL) horror manga which is currently also scheduled for anime release next year (2025).
Content warnings naturally follow and further details will be spoilered.
CONTENT WARNINGS
Grief, body horror and (very debatably IMO) mild gore, supernatural horror (ghosts/“impurities”, otherworldly entities), death I suppose though that one’s a given
Premise
The titular Hikaru went for a walk in the woods, died, and something came back wearing his body, something that doesn’t quite know how to be human or mortal; “Hikaru” returned, to ensure that his best friend, Yoshiki, would not be lonely. Romantic tension (and tension of a less pleasant kind) ensues.
The plot/things I like about it thus far (light spoilers)
Yoshiki and “Hikaru” have an absolutely great dynamic- their relationship may not be fully healthy, but their intentions seem to both be in the right place, as are their deep feelings (Yoshiki’s for Hikaru and increasingly for “Hikaru,” and Hikaru and “Hikaru’s” own true feelings) and honesty in this regard, despite the latter “Hikaru” being effectively an imposter of sorts. (it’s complicated, but these are increasingly distinguished separately and I really like that process as well)
“Hikaru” is, while not quite a blank slate, extremely new to the concept of even just “being” in the sense that mortal creatures and individual organisms(?) do. They’ve had to learn (and Yoshiki has had to confront them about) the value and significance of life and death; they’ve increasingly established boundaries, and they approach the world with a liveliness and curiousity that is really cute (the original Hikaru was also lively FWIW, but “Hikaru” is experiencing everything anew even if they retain the memories).
Yoshiki, on the other hand, is both grappling with his grief and loss of Hikaru, while finding comfort (and discomfort alike) in his imposter, and in guiding them through a new world or state of being. He’s finding his resolve and moral/ethical backbone interacting with “Hikaru” (very blue-and-orange morality dynamics, though they’re learning), he’s experiencing what could be described as a rocky but determined romance and queer experimentation at the same time “Hikaru” is being introduced to notions of attraction and desire (beyond instinctual desire to consume).
Their pairing in so many ways should not work (or rather would be usually destined for a tragic end). From the start, there have been several points where by all means it should have met such an end. But their determination and willingness to meet the other where they’re at and gradually be understanding with the other is both fascinating and something I’d feel optimistic for (and interested in seeing play out further).
Anyways, I should cut myself short at this (and make sure to have something properly written beforehand for next time). But anyways, thus far it’s a strong recommend (if you feel alright with the content warnings) from me.
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I hope Yor is okay…
lmao just got a notification from my pcp that i’m apparently overdue for a pap smear. i’d uh, like to see her try i guess?
Me right now trying to hold it together and get through the day
I have acquired the blåhaj
This whole “being a person” thing is really not working out, on a buncha levels. What if I were just a cat, instead?
Mood
Spiro is turning me into a cat. I just want to curl up under some blankets and sleep most of the time.
I think about/vaguely wish I was an animal kind of often. Just hang out and chill, wouldn’t even know what I’m missing.
You should explore this potentially
I honestly don’t understand what you mean by this.
it’s a miracle druids in fantasy settings ever get anything done. why are they running around doing all sorts of things when they could just turn into a bear and chill?
real
Mood. Being a human sucks.
I am willing to commit to the statement that Hexbear has the largest pup community in the fediverse.
Furiously scribbling down Make puppygirls bark the USSR national anthem
i think that if ur trans and someone misgenders u u should be able 2 fucking kazuma kiryu heat action them
hello trans mega
i finally talked to that one girl
spoiler
it was… a surprisingly normal conversation. apparently i hit her at a bad time in life (she just broke up with one of her gfs 2 days before i told her ) but was actually really understanding and said she was proud of me for even saying anything. Apparently, despite being so infatuated by her that I straight up wrote her a love letter (that went unmentioned during our talk because that would have been weird), she actually didn’t see me being attracted to her at all like that. She ultimately didn’t see me back as anything more than a friend which was disappointing but ultimately the answer which I expected
kind of disappointing that there was nothing but like… it was an extremely normal conversation that will not cause any further drama and i feel better for having said something even if it didn’t go the way i really wanted it to
Turn that letter into a boat and give it a Viking funeral
I’m sorry u dont have a new gf at the very least it sounds like a very healthy talk that was good for you, so grats on that tbh.
yeah I’m just… eh. idk
i keep feeling kind of fucked because i was into her enough to open up google docs and start writing her a three page love letter just from thinking about her and meanwhile she genuinely was surprised that i had any kind of romantic thoughts about her at all is making me feel like
like oh okay, i managed to keep one unbelievable poker face and she genuinely didn’t have a single idea and that… hurts in a way i can’t quite explain
I mean, that’s kind of a skill? You can always become more expressive but whether or not someone will twig that you’re crushing is entirely a matter of chance, social norms… I can also tell you for free that wearing your heart on your sleeve 24/7 is not that fun
down with cis
down with cis
down with cis
down with cis
down with cis
down with cis
down with cis
Down with cis
based
There is a decent amount of evidence to suggest that Jesse Pinkman is a transgender man
He’s called Jesse (a gender ambiguous, but typically feminine name) PINKman (as of to highlight his conscious choice in gender presentation; he does not harbor toxic masculinity in thinking that pink emasculates him). He wears baggy clothing even when weather inappropriate due to gender dysphoria. He is on shaky conditions with his parents who clearly don’t accept him, but his little brother does.
Due to a lack of parental support, he had to start cooking meth to make ends meet, and also learned to make DIY HRT with his chemistry skills. He dates Jane, who is also trans (obviously). Most people are supportive of him, except for Mike, who is transphobic (you are not the guy).
Jesse Pinkman is trans, this is one transillion percent true and canon
my mental state is completely bottoming out right now this is the worst i’ve felt in months i hate everything
AWA AWAAAAAAAA!!! :3 🎉🎊✨🎇🎆
i love my wife
getting gendered correctly by a customer after getting like 10 “sirs” in a row before feels like getting up from Fight For Your Life mode in Borderlands