Does this make sense at all? In my head, it’s the most clear. When written, I feel like I’m not able to fully express what I’m thinking. When speaking, it’s like fucking Russian roulette and can be wonderfully put together and eloquent or stroke-like.
Is there any way to improve this or is it just the way my damn brain works?
Im an EMT, during that period I was testing regularly and hadn’t gotten covid until well after my communication issues started. Maybe it’s a traumatic response or something, maybe covid eventually made it worse, but it didnt cause my problem
Could be both. Trauma causes the integration of the brain to be more difficult due to dissociation which means attention/conscientiousness is much more difficult.
I’m not gonna deny your personal experience because I’m not you. But I honestly don’t think it’s helpful to have a chicken or the egg discussion about a disease that has clear links to cognitive impairment. My child has a heart condition that to the best of their cardiologists’ knowledge is not known to have a causal link to COVID. We hadn’t contracted COVID either by the time they were admitted to the hospital for acute myocarditis, which COVID can cause. My partner and I have had many sleepless nights wondering if we could have given them COVID asymptomatically and that could have precipitated into their condition. And it took a long time for us to realize that the cause doesn’t matter. What matters is knowing the threat now and protecting ourselves from it.
Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely agree with you broady. Covid has definitely caused this problem or problems like it in a lot of people. It’s only in my specific context where I disagree, simply because I have a pretty solid reason to believe that covid didn’t cause my problem. There were extended periods (several consecutive months) between 2020-2023 where I was tested weekly. I also was lucky enough to receive the vaccine in December of 2020, and had kept up with my boosters. We tested when we were exposed or when covid was making the rounds through the staff. I had a regular partner at that time and wasn’t working with randos, so either we were both exposed or neither of us were. Also masked up off shift, etc etc. I didn’t catch covid until November or December of 2022. I really started noticing my communication issues in late 2020 or early '21.
I know that false negatives are a thing and being asymptomatic is possible but I’ve always reacted really poorly to covid, even the shots knock me on my ass for a couple of days.