i’m back after an absence; i’ve been working on a bunch of stuff because Cohost is shutting down at the end of the month.
the result: i have a website now, and i’m porting over my essays and running my union blog out of that. i have an RSS feed that works for both, as far as i can tell. things seem like they’re calming down now so hopefully i’ll be able to be around more for the remainder of this month
Bad mental health week. Accidentally alienated my only friend because he was trying to be nice but I felt like he didn’t hear what I was saying and I kept talking in circles.
I don’t think therapy is an option because I can’t afford an involuntary commitment. I looked it up, and if I get lucky and they send me to the cheapest hospital, the first day will wipe out my savings. It’s a minimum 72-hour hold, I’d be ruined.
Also I didn’t even get my library card because I didn’t realize the library closes early on my day off 😢
Just trying to bury myself in overtime so I don’t have time to mess my life up.
I’m so sorry you’re having such a difficult time. I wish I could fix it for you! I hope your brain eases up on you soon and things improve for you ASAP.
I feel like there’s a lot more I want to say, but my brain is a turd and I can’t find the words. I really, really feel for you and you’re not alone, although I know it doesn’t make it suck any less. You deserve better. I hope you’re doing your best to be kind and understanding to yourself as you would with a beloved friend (but goodness I know how difficult that is/easier said than done!) 💖💖💖
Thank you, that’s very kind ❤️